Spirituality: It’s Not All So Serious

When I started off pursuing a spiritual life I took it all rather seriously. I believed that opening myself up to the divine, meant holding myself to some hugely holy standards. When writing my latest book the High Heeled Guide to Spiritual Living I took all the spiritual learning and spiritual ‘rulings’ I had set myself and I attempted to live them. I wanted to explore the reality of living as a soulful human, but one with emotions, faults, flaws and needs.

 

I was setting myself up to fail. I would torture myself over the smallest things that I felt did not fit some uber-important spiritual philosophy I had garnered from too many books, too many gurus. So one glass of wine too many and I would feel deeply ashamed, any word spoken out of line and my heart would sink, any touch of gossip I indulged would leave me feeling I had betrayed myself and my soulful world. It was a difficult place to be, an impossible standard was set and one that I came to realize almost negated the very point of me being a human on this earth.

 

It seemed that under my spiritual microscope we were all failing quite dramatically. One wonderful mentor turned out to have a hilariously bitchy side, another guru I threw my spiritual learning upon, placed his hand a little too low down my married back during a ‘friendly hug’ and I, well I believed I was the worst of them all. No matter how hard I tried, I just kept slipping. It was in this melee of spiritual catastrophe and failure that I realized that living spirituality is not so serious after all.

 

As I have come to learn, serious and enlightened are not concepts that fit easily together. To be so serious in this mixed bag of human madness, leads only to further madness! It is my conclusion that for all but Monks and Nuns, serious and certifiable enlightenment is pretty much impossible. In fact I’d be tempted to classify my attempts at spiritual seriousness as being like I had fallen into a spiritual black hole. Taking everything too seriously and believing that enlightenment only comes through self-denial and lonely ritual led directly to that pit of misery.

 

My spiritual path, when taken too seriously was a danger to my health and that of those around me. As a result I had a good, lengthy year of chaos. There is nothing like taking yourself too seriously, when surrounded by circumstances beyond your control, to realize that something is awry. Car crash followed car crash, followed death of pet chicken, followed severe marital distress and eventually, well eventually you just have to laugh… Because goshdarnit, prayers, obsessive tarot readings and mantras only go so far.

 

In taking my spiritual self too seriously I nearly lost everything. A harsh lesson indeed. And one that informed not only the writing of my second book, but the very bones of my life. In my spiritual seriousness I pushed people away and I denied my human self it’s pleasures, it’s fun, it’s stress-relieving love of laughter. I became a spiritual shell, one surrounded by a core of self-inflicted dogma, but with very little going on inside. But rather than give up, I decided to reengage my spiritual sensors, alter my spiritual philosophy  and live soulfully with my humanity at the heart of my quest.

 

I made a conscious decision that being spiritual does not mean negating life as we know it. It simply means having a faith and a belief in life happening as it ought too, and whilst I am carried along on that ride, I will be true to myself, be kind to those around me, stop trying to understand the ‘divinity’ of every single little thing, and just trust that every single little thing, is in fact more divine than I will ever know. I decided to go to Alton Towers, then I went to Florida, my husband and I went on all the rides and we lived in the moment for one whole week. I laughed, I whooped, I hollered, I ate too much and I went to bed happy. I let the mission I had been on drop away, and I embraced the self in me that just wanted to live and love and laugh.

 

Spiritual Living is about that kind of madcap, zany, laugh a minute happiness. It’s about embracing whatever it is you love, be that theme parks, walks in the park or the occasional cocktail drinking session. It’s about giving up control, releasing your ego and loving every minute. This is not always easy to do, but it is worth doing all the same. If a spiritual life is what you seek then it’s so much easier than a trip to India or a dozen tantric yoga positions. I simply advise you to allow your humanity to beat at the heart of your quest.

 

Let your spiritual living be urban, gritty and real. We are not on this planet to float off into the ether quite yet, so get your wellies on and get living. Know that your life, as it is today, is enough. Spiritual living will not protect you from life’s difficulties, so don’t expect it to, allow your divine side to get up to it’s knees in mud and filth and know that your inner faith, love for oneself and yes the occasional meditation session will help to wash your soulful boots clean.

 

Spirituality is about life; it’s about finding the divine in roller coasters, naughty dinners and a damned tasty glass of red wine. True healthy, natural spiritual living promotes balance in all things, the balance of humanity aside mysticality. A spiritual life knows that one is lost without the other. I was lost without my spirituality for many years, but then I wandered into a self-inflicted divine wilderness when I chose spirituality over humanity. My advice is that you must mix things up, take both at the same time, indulge a dose of comedy with your karma, yoga and wine with your divine and above all, and most importantly, and I cannot stress this enough… Enjoy! 

 

Alice Grist  Author / Publisher

www.alicegrist.co.uk